On Things.
December 13, 2008After an amusing mis-communication, and a good chat with a co-worker, I felt the desire to write a blog post. Because it’s been forever, or something.
It’s interesting the way everything ebbs and flows. Everything. Goals, relationships with people, desires to write blog posts, songwriting, crush intensities, moods, confidence, the feeling of being wanted, strength of resolution. Everything. And I’m just now catching on. Anticipating it. Like, it’s ok, it’s just an ebb. This will be back. With intensity.
Just pretend like the ebb is a flow and it will be, eventually. Work out anyway. Don’t eat the damn ice cream. Write bad songs for awhile. Keep working your two jobs and sticking to your budget, because you still want this. It’s still going to be ok if she doesn’t want you, you can get over this. Things like that.
Things also evolve. Like relationships and confidence and strength of resolutions and goals. I am working on accepting evolution of goals with confidence of purpose. Allowing for adaptation and growth without feeling like a flip flopper.
Evolution: Music before Europe.
Plan: Continue current saving plan. Buy a professional guitar. Get a professional demo and a hearty car, and cross country road-trip-tour my heart out.
Evolution. Change. *Confidence*.
I think you’re totally right — everything does come and go, and it helps to be aware of this at the time. The downside of this is that you know when things are bad that they’ll get better, but you also know when things are good that they’ll get worse again . . . (or you could choose to forget that part in favor of being blissfully ignorant)
As lame as it sounds… sometimes you need to flipflop a bit to find what you truly want. Things are going to change. Plans are going to be adjusted.
Flipflop if you need to.
(But please still come to India)